Update

Unfortunately we couldn't sleep at the hospital last night :(  Eva had about four episodes during the afternoon and evening where she stopped breathing.  She didn't need to be ventilated and managed to fix it each time herself but the Dr felt that it wasn't worth the risk and neither did we!  One of the early signs of an infection is a change in breathing patterns so she was tested yesterday afternoon and once in the night.  The afternoon test was negative and I don't know about the night test.  But I do know that she breathed her way through the night so fingers crossed it was nothing serious.

A similar thing happened when my Mum was with us;  she was sick and then swallowed it again and then she dipped in her oxygen saturation.  As always I have a theory!  I think it is all connected with her breastfeeding and not being fed via her feeding tube. Over the past few days she has undergone some major changes. I ran it by the Dr who though it was possible (but not likely, haha!).  The good news is that they are keeping a close eye on her and she is the picture of health with her little chubby legs and rosy cheeks.

Grandma Lindqvist got to have cuddles with her yesterday :)

My heart was literally ripped open and stamped upon yesterday when I had to watch my beautiful Emilia recovering from her eye operation.  Her eyes are really swollen with puss coming out of them and she kept getting a pained look on her face.  The problem is that she still doesn't cry.  Her oxygen saturation remained stable, stopping the nurses from knowing that she needed help.  So she was just lying there literally writhing in pain.  They upped her pain medication after I kept telling them about it.

We ended up staying at the hospital last night until 23.00 just holding her and stroking her little head.  It is a lovely feeling knowing that we can calm her. She properly breastfed last night for the first time too, so it isn't all doom and gloom.

I just want it all to stop! When my little girl gets home she is going to have the most beautiful, warm, safe and loving life possible, that will hopefully make up for all this!

So today is a new day!  Like yesterday we will be going to the hospital armed with our cooler box and overnight bag in the hope that our little Eva can party with us tonight :)