Complete

In spite of all the emotions I am feeling and the stress surrounding our new situation, I also feel complete now that Emilia is at home.  After I felt really sad at the hospital I was given the option of leaving her for a night and my first thought was one of relief and I nearly did it.  But then I thought of Emilia and how much better she has it at home than in the hospital.  How much better we can love her and comfort her.  I want to take care of her and I feel incredible joy when I am doing it.  Even all the work doesn't feel like hard work because I know with every feed that Emilia will put weight on and with every cuddle that she feels calmer which helps her little body to heal and grow.

I love my babies more than anything in the world and I am determined to work through all of my emotional issues to give them the best life possible :)!