Update

Emilia moved to the surgical ward yesterday where they will gradually increase her food intake.  This is a very positive step for her but we still have no idea how long it will be before she comes home.

I got a bit of a shock as the new room is really small and shared with 3 other families :(  But we just have to suck it up and get on with it and just do everything we can to help Emilia get through this.  She is now eating 10ml per feed and they let her suck on me; she took 20ml in about 4 minutes!  So the next breastfeeding session is going to have to wait until she is used to eating larger amounts.  I really need her to suck the mastitis out of me as Eva is still not sucking well.  Sometimes she does ok, but most of the time it just tickles.

I started taking antibiotics 5 days ago and have been very ill and depressed over the weekend.  I am still in a lot of pain and have to take ibuprofen, but I no longer have a fever.  I am seeing the Dr again tomorrow.  Luckily my Mum flew out last Friday to help us and to be honest I don't know what I would have done without her.  Just coping with a new baby at home is tough, add a flu like fever, excruciating breast pain and another new born in intensive care and it is hard not to feel completely overwhelmed, helpless and hopeless.

But I have got through it and feel a lot better today.  As Eva was awake for a large part of the night she is now sleeping like a little princess in her carry cot on the sofa and I just napped with my head snuggled into hers.  For the most part she is no trouble at all and is very relaxed with us at home.  Even when we have to take her to the hospital she just sleeps and lets us give our attention to Emilia.