Emilia

I have woken up today thinking a lot about Emilia.  I have spent so much time writing about what has been wrong with her so now it is time to share all the beautiful things that are right with Emilia Cajsa Lindqvist.

Her light brown hair is soft like feathers.  She has lots of energy, which I think she gets from me and sometimes it feels like she has a hard time relaxing.  But when I sing to her and stroke her forehead and hair she becomes peaceful and calm. She likes sucking on her dummy and even holds onto it sometimes.  She doesn't cry!  Emilia is very curious about the world around her and her eyes are open wide a lot, much more than you would expect such a young baby to be awake.  She has got Jens' big beautiful eyes, but we think they are going to be the same colour as mine (green with a brown ring in the middle, just like my mummy's). Her face is beautiful like an angel.

Emilia saved my life and Eva's too.  Had she not set everything going in the beginning, then all three of us may have died.  So when I thought she wasn't going to make it everything felt so unjust.  She has fought to live so many times now and has been through so much already.  Emilia doesn't give up.  Now it is her time to be loved and to get the chance to see all the things that she is going to be so curious about;  Her cat Guinness, her Grandparents, her aunties, her cousins, all of our friends who already love her, her frog bedroom and pram, her rainforest baby gym, her home, mushrooms in the forest, flowers, the list is endless.  Like my poem said, there are so many things planned for her!

When Emilia got the infection Jens said to her, "all you need to do is fix this and we will fix the rest".  That is what we are going to do!

Here is a picture of Emilia: