Toni has left

I just took my sister to the airport after her lovely two week visit and I am devastated.  The past weeks have been non-stop baby action, interjected with stolen moments of joke sharing and catching up.  I cannot believe it is all over and that I have no idea when I will see her again :(  Why do I live in Sweden and her in USA, what were we thinking?

Getting to know my giant niece (hehe) has been very special.  I have been showered with smiles, drowned in her teething drool and watched her learn to clap her hands.  I fell in love with her instantly and it has just got stronger and stronger.  I know I should feel happy that I got to meet her but right now all I can think about is how much I am going to miss her.

Eva is now over 5kg and is doing great.  Both the twins have had colds and it affected Eva quite badly to the point where I took her to the hospital.  She has made a full recovery!  She has started to smile a lot more and Jens saw her laugh this morning.  My little Eva is adorable.

Emilia is doing OK.  We were forced to get her another feeding tube as she wasn't putting on enough weight and feeding her was really tough and stressful.  She has also needed oxygen again and when she had her cough and cold she needed quite a lot.  On one of the days her cough was a lot worse so I had to take her to the Dr's.  She is now being sick a lot more too and at times just cannot seem to relax.  It breaks my heart to see her like that.  It really has been non-stop and it is very difficult for me to see light at the end of the tunnel.

I am taking her to the hospital this afternoon to get her feeding tube re-taped and then she is having an appointment with a lung specialist.  It is a routine thing for all babies with extra oxygen.  She is getting her hips checked on Monday and we are hoping so much for an all clear.  Her hip brace just makes caring for her even more stressful for her and us.