Tomorrow

So we leave for England tomorrow!  I am very excited but nervous at the same time.  Hopefully with around the clock help from my Mum and Dad I will have time to write my blog, but in case I don't I wanted to write a quick update as so much as happened.

Eva has 6 teeth now and she has had a real hard time getting them.  She now refuses to sleep unassisted and each time she sleeps she needs to be held tight.  If she wakes up in the night then we have to put her in bed with us.  Mandy was here last night and we were talking about it and she said a phrase which is appparently well known in this crazy baby world "You can't book it".  Meaning no book can say how to deal with this madness and I agree.  Eva has been "text book" for most of her baby life and by that I mean could self soothe and needed very little help from us in getting off to sleep.  We looked for tired signs and as soon as we saw them she was straight into bed.  But then one day it all changed.  We have tried everything, even the horrible method of leaving her to cry.  That didn't work and just left my angel in a state that tore open my heart.  So we are just going with it, if she needs to be held then we will hold her for as long as it takes.

I have not been feeling too great recently and I have just been able to identify why.  When they don't do what I want I feel like a failure, I feel frustrated.  But I need to just accept that they will almost always do the opposite of what I want and use that as my starting point.  Yesterday, as I had a wriggling Eva in my arms and an Emilia in her bed, walking around the sides and shouting "Ahh duh" (the only thing she says!) I thought to myself, what are they stopping me from doing by being awake.  I wanted to sort the laundry and clean the bathroom (riveting stuff), so I put them in the pack and play by the bathroom and left them to play while I did my jobs.  It felt good! Then I tried again, Eva went to sleep, Emilia refused so I put her in her high chair and unloaded the dishwasher.  When I had finished doing what I needed to do I let her play.  When Eva woke up Emilia went down!

(So yet another post that did not get finished or posted! - the flight went really well and as I type this both babies are sleeping at the same time)