Emilia is coming home

Emilia is coming home tomorrow on a 24 hour trial :)

I meant to write the blog last night as two very exciting things happened yesterday.  The first thing was that Emilia breastfed 50 ml!  Which is a record and 40 ml came from my weaker breast, the one I hardly ever get any milk out of.  Which goes to show that pumping milk is totally rubbish.  The only problem is that as she is so little and still quite weak, she doesn't have the strength to suck so good every time.  We are going to keep her feeding tube in place until the breastfeeding gets even stronger.

The second good thing was that as Emilia is now eating 60 ml of food, she no longer needs her drip and so they were able to remove the last needle (which was in her head)!  Meaning that she is totally free and only has oxygen and her feeding tube.  I cried tears of joy and relief while holding her close to me.  The feeling was so so strong and overwhelming that it is difficult to describe (I think the nurses were quite surprised by the strength of my reaction).  We have seen so many needles put into her and seen her unable to move her hands and feet properly.  It never got any easier.  But now that is all behind us and it feels amazing.

The past is history, tomorrow a mystery, today is a gift - that is why it is called the present!

We have spent the last three weeks loving Eva at home (who slept well for the first time in her bed) and tomorrow Emilia will get the same treatment; I cannot wait!  I have always said that I cannot imagine how it will be to have both of my baby girls home and to be honest the anticipation of the unknown makes it even more exciting.  I know it is going to be hard work but I hope all these experiences we have had so far are going to help us enjoy every minute even more, even during the tough times.

Maybe everything does happen for a reason?!